I didn't think it would be like this.
I thought that I was ready. I know God asked me to do this. I know it was hard before but at least then, I had a safety net. I thought that things would be better. Easier even. I was wrong.
God asked me to do something that I am sure of. I have taken the first step. I am walking in obedience to Him. So, why is this hitting me so hard? I know that it is right. I have support from those around me. But it sucks. I feel horrible. Why?
I am crying. I feel a death happening inside me. And I know it is right. I know He is here.
So, I go where He has called me. I turn aside my pride. I remind myself that my identity is in Him. I am a daughter of the Most High. I am me. And what He might really be asking me to "do" right now is believe that right there.
No other label attached.
Just me and Him.
1 comment:
I heard this song while reading your post.
He knows my name! He knows my every thought. He sees each tear that falls and He hears me when I call!
Thank you for the gift of going second:-)
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