So, I have been confronted about blogging on the surface! UGH!
So here goes.....
I feel like I don't have anything good to say. And by good I mean both positive and helpful.
I am a comparer...you know, the kind of person who secretly compares EVERY aspect of life (shoes, kids, voices, amount of take home pay, what you do to get ready in the morning, when do you shower, do you prefer Letterman or Leno, dark wood or light, and on and on). I am not really into it to "win" but I struggle with caring about "where I stand" after I have categorized all these comparisons.
I want to be good at everything I do, but rarely feel like I am doing so.
I am high maintenance when it comes to relationships but I will fight to the end to keep one alive, even when it is unhealthy.
Obviously, these are but a few of my many quirks, idiosyncrasies, or whatever you want to call them. I have recognized these things about me but what now?
Well, first, I have come to grips that those things I listed are all parts of me. I go no further than that right now. They are just there. And God made me. Granted, I am also shaped by this fallen world I live in, but God knew I would be this way today and He still chose me, loves me, and wants to be with me and use me! If I can not get pasted that one statement right there, then I need go no further. And that statement can take my whole life to work on really believing!
Then, I pray and seek the Lord to see if those things are of Him or not. And, as He reveals things that need to fall away, (or change) because they are not a part of the new me (you know, the one that Jesus made me to be now that I have surrendered to him), I ask Him to help show me how He sees me so that I can be changed by Him to be that way.
For instance, I have always thought the "not having anything nice to say" quirk was a bad thing all the time. But, when clothed in the guidance of the Holy Spirit, it can also be a discerning voice used to guide and direct me.
I do want to remind anyone reading this that the first step after recognition is to realize that God loves you right where you are. And he uses you right there as well. And the more you focus on knowing, trusting, and loving Him, the more you will be transformed into exactly who you already are ;-)
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