You should hear the level of noise resonating in my house right now. I was trying to tell my husband something and I just stopped because it was easier to stop and not say anything than to try and yell over the noise that surrounded us.
Then I realized something.....I really feel like I am drowning sometimes....I used to live a comfortable life that I could handle, but now, now I am in over my head. There are many times when I cringe at the thought of someone watching in on my life.
That leads me to start drowning out the noise...
I start not being present for my kids and hubby first. I escape to Facebook. I try and do anything to not have to face the people around me. Ugh, I hate writing this....I will even do chores around the house that I wouldnt otherwise do just so I dont have to be with those I love...ouch.
So, when I feel like I am drowning...I start to drown out.
The Lord is showing me something about that though. People say He will never give you more than you can handle but I disagree. I think He will always give you more than you alone can handle so that you have to rely on Him! And then, you are faced with the choice when you are drowning....are you going to drown out by leaving mentally and emotionally, or are you going to drown in Him and let Him take care of you?
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